I've been holding it in all day...posting little things here or there on Facebook, but trying to keep my emotions physically on the inside as best as I could.
I've been watching people. I've passed by and avoided eye contact with literally hundreds of people today. But I've noticed them around me. And I've wondered if they were one of THOSE who voted for Donald (go ahead, unfriend/unfollow me for saying that...it will just make my life a bit less complicated).
And finally, I sat down at a bar and had 2 beers (I know it's not "5 o'clock" yet...go ahead, judge me...I'm already on number 3) and bawled my eyes out, arms crossed on a granite counter top, head resting on them, hysterically crying. And my wife is right here with me. She rubbed my back and let me cry.
And in this moment, I am beyond angry. And you might be one of the people with whom I am beyond angry. And you are going to just have to deal with that. And choose what you will do with that, just like I will.
I have unfollowed and unfriended many people today. Sorry, but not sorry. More will come. Again, I can't and won't apologize for that.
I stand by what I have said before. A vote for Trump was a vote for hate. You will not change my mind. The majority (from an electoral perspective) of the American public just voted to support hate, fear, injustice, and greed. And if you disagree with me, only comment if you are prepared for a fight. And a fight that might not end well.
Because now, only I can choose what I will do next. I think some of you are gonna be really fucking shocked. Get ready. It's not gonna be pretty.
My entire life and career I have walked on motherfucking eggshells. I have - INTENTIONALLY - worked to be INCLUSIVE of ALL opinions, worldviews, political sides, etc. BECAUSE I CHOSE TO BE. Because I really had hope that being like that would contribute to getting us all to a better place of understanding. But you know what? That same approach has NOT EVER been fully reciprocated. (There are, of course, exceptions to that.) Goddamn, that was naive.
So now I am done.
The straw has broken the camel's back. I am sorry to those who I love deeply and who I know love me as well about how my future actions might impact you. But as far as I know, I only get one shot at this life. I'm gonna live it the best way I know how.
And I know that the best way I know how is not succumbing to a Donald Presidency. He can go fuck himself. And so can everyone who voted for him. Again - unfriend me if you must. But this is truly how I feel.
I know that even my friends who are Hillary (or third party) supporters might disagree with this post. And that is fine. But I am entitled to my feelings and reactions just as much as you are - no more and no less. Please remember that.
I'm beyond angry. And I am fine with saying all of this. Because now anything and everything is fair game. Right?
Donald Trump will NEVER be MY President. NEVER.
- Jen